In the last few days I’ve been given an award and tagged for a meme. More on both of these good things below.
These two events, and my funny old reaction to them, got me thinking about myself, (what again?) which was useful. I’ll tell you about the ‘thinking’ bit at the end. First the good news.
I am very complimented that Matt Urdan at ‘Meltwater. Torrents. Meanderings. Delta.’ has selected my little blog for an award. There are obviously millions of blogs out there for him to choose from, so knowing that one of the five he actually chose was mine gives me a nice warm feeling inside, it really does.
It’s called the “Arte y Pico" Award and apparently it was created as part of a tag initiative from the “Arte y Pico" Blog, where you pass along a compliment to other bloggers.
This compliment is made all the better because Matt is a blogger who I particularly admire. I think you can learn as much from a blogger’s comments on other people’s posting as you can from the person’s blog itself.
So let it be with Master Urdan. I have seen Matt, through his comments, here and elsewhere, strongly reflect both his kindness and his enthusiasm. Also (only quite recently) I have witnessed his bravery in unflinchingly saying what he strongly felt in a situation where it would have been infinitely easier to say nothing at all. He also likes ABBA, which is largely forgivable.
Respect to Matt and many thanks.
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Then Wonderful Kathleen at Poetikat tagged me to list Seven Songs which I am currently into. That’s a bit of good fun so here goes:
‘Louisiana 1927’ by Randy Newman (Can’t get this out of my head at the moment)
‘The Look of Love’ sung by Dusty Springfield (I love the songs of Bacharach and David)
‘Lie to Me’ by Tom Waits
‘I saw Her Standing There’ by The Beatles (one… two… three…FOUR!)
‘True Faith’ by New Order
‘Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robots by The Flaming Lips
Alexandra Leaving by Leonard Cohen
(This all may change tomorrow)
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Now here’s the thinking part…
When I got the award and the meme, I was dead pleased, really I was.
But… I did not want to pass them on, uh uh, no way.
So I asked myself why? And, frankly, I bullshitted myself for a few hours. I told myself I did not want to just pick five of the many Bloggers I admire. I told myself it was a deep-seated aversion to anything to do with a ‘chain’, however well-intentioned and harmless it might be. I told myself I was bloody lazy.
There is an element of truth to all these points, a little… not too much.
When I was honest with myself, it was actually quite revealing.
This is what I found to be the truth of the matter. *I hate asking people to do things for me.* I really do. That’s why you may never see a guest blog on this page.
To take it a step further – I also feel a strong moral obligation do try my best to do whatever anyone ever asks me to do. I think these two attributes are related but I haven’t quite figured out how yet. I’ll continue to chew on it for awhile.
So thanks guys, for awards and memes, for friendship and for compliments and, most of all, for empowering me to cast a cold eye on myself.
By the way, I won’t be passing on the award and the meme as the rules demand…