I turned sixty this week. Go me.
It was a good time. Both the
boys were down and the four of us had dinner in a favourite place down the town where they
know me and they know not to take me too seriously. I also had the opportunity
to see both sides of the family, Patricia’s and mine, in the days before the birthday
and, although both meetings were for sad reasons, there was a moment for people
I care about to wish me well on my upcoming milestone birthday.
So, it was all good.
I got a nice array of
pressies. New glasses, (check the photo) and new prescription Ray ban sunnies,
which are proving life changing. I’ve needed glasses for the last twenty years
but have never had prescription sunglasses so it’s always been a toss up
between reducing the glare and not seeing terrible well or seeing really well
and squinting into the sun. Now I’m ready for action. I feel dreadfully cool
too. I got my first pair of Ray bans when I was twenty-five (I think) and I’ve
always loved the look. Now here I am again, on a street near you. I also got
some of those cool air bud things for your ears, which I’m enjoying a lot, and Sam
always brings me into his world of music with a CD for my lovely player and it’s
something I treasure a lot. This time, the CD is ‘Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe
in You’ by Big Thief, just in case you feel like listening along.
I got other things from
other places too but you don’t need to hear it all and I don’t need to write it
down. You get the picture. So far, it’s been a very good year.
The feeling I woke up with,
on my birthday morning, was of having achieved something. I guess it may sound trite
or insincere but this is honestly how I felt. I felt like I’d made it to sixty
and, no matter what happened to me from this day forward, I’d had a great sixty
years and nobody could ever take that away from me. I thought a little about two
groups of people, those who don’t get as far as Sixty and those who don’t get
there in the fullness of their health. Not in a gloating, ‘check me out, I win’
type of a way but more in a ‘if I’ve been randomly selected to stick around for
another while then I’d better do the very best I can with it.
Since my birthday landed, I’ve
had my first (and possibly only) Aperol Spritz and I’ve toddled off to see
Indiana Jones in a matinee, just because I wanted to. I got my new glasses (see above) and I am
working hard to finish a writing thing that I’ve been dawdling over for a long
time.
The growing tendency, in the
last decade, has been to keep my head down as far as humanly possible. To avoid
trouble and danger and strife at all costs. To cruise and doze on into antiquity.
It’s not who I used to be. It’s not who I reckon I should be.
Writing is my thing and
always will be. But I’ve become passive about it. I still write but not with
any expectation of it being seen or shared. Every time it happens it’s like some
kind of a pleasant, unwarranted surprise. But, like it or not, I’m actually
better than that. I can tell a story, I can bring you along with me, make you
laugh, even make you cry. I’ve put in the hours and the hard yards. I should
just be trying a little harder to get out there with what I do.
When it comes to resolutions,
New Years Eve doesn’t work for me. I watch Jools Holland and greet the
neighbours out on the street and go to bed. Perhaps sixtieth birthdays are
where I should do my best resolving. I certainly feel more inclined to that. I think I should resolve to make it so that, when I look back at the ripe old age of Sixty One, I can
say with some authority, “Hey, that was a very good year.”
As that man quoted at the end
of that thing, “I shall not waste my days in
trying to prolong them. I shall use my time.” Me? I’d probably best throw a couple of ‘try to’ qualifications
in there.
That’s all we can ever do… is try.
2 comments:
Happy 60th.
I learned after 60 to do what makes me, my family and friends happy and to go with the flow a little more…..and to relax.
No-one ever had on their gravestone “I wish I had spent more time worrying about things that really didn’t matter”. 😁
Prescription sunglasses are a game changer! 😎
Yeah, turning sixty was weird. I mean, sixty is, no matter what they say nowadays, old. I was old. You can retire at sixty and no one thinks that’s weird. And you need to be old to retire. That’s part of the deal. I won’t officially retire for another two years. It doesn’t make much difference but God alone knows what I’ll do with all that pension when it comes. Save it, I suppose. We don’t need it. I’m not sure I felt like I’d achieved anything reaching sixty. Survived, maybe. Lorra shit happened in those sixty years. Lorra shit.
I’ve was going to say I’d no idea what I got for my last birthday but I’ve just remembered the Jerry Garcia Funko Carrie modified to look more like me. That was cool.
Never heard of Big Thief but am listening to ‘Dragon New Warm Mountain I Believe in You (Official Audio)’ as I type this. Pleasant. Bit like Aldous Harding. The kind of thing sexagenarian old farts like us should be listening to although to be honest I’m going through a prog rock phase myself at the moment. SO MANY albums I never got round to back in t’day.
As for the writing, my sixties started off with such a bang. The poetry was just pouring out of me like never before. And it wasn’t anything to do with lockdown or anything. I never felt trapped or whatever. And it wasn’t even moving house because I’d already started churning out stuff prior to the move but what gets me is why the run continued because I was happy with the move and the new house and happiness hasn’t really worked that well for me in the past. But you go with the flow.
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